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  Lemons People say time heals all wounds. I hope that's true. Have been in an emotional roller coaster for the past three days. I cried, i went apeshit. My innards feel like they shrivelled up. My eyes hurt when i blink. I am better now. I smiled and laughed yesterday afternoon. I cried again last night. I smiled and laughed today. I hope i don't cry tonight.
I fell, i picked myself up. I grew and i learnt. I know more now. I know that i will never make promises that i cannot keep because i will end up tearing someone into pieces.I know because i am in pieces. All things happen for a reason. I have to learn.
I am blessed to have my dippy-dotty loving clique with me, estella, yat hei and my sister. I know all of you love me. I love you guys too. Be strong, be strong, joey.
I am healing, i am healing. I have to heal. Even if it hurts i have to heal. But i know for sure this is going to take years. I am healing on the surface now. My heart hurts my head hurts even my arms hurt.
I am still sad. My heart is floating in lemon juice. I am still in a semi-daze. I am trying to smile and be brave. I am trying.
I know that you truly loved me once before. I am glad for that. What we shared was true.
But what was, is no longer. Farewell. Smile inside out, be happy. I still believe in fairytale endings, but it is now up to God. Farewell.  ¶ 5:44 PM 0 Comments

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  Happy Easter Mum and dad are back in singapore from their diving trip. Dad almost died cos of the depth or smth. Mum is now freaked out and does not want me to dive till i'm "older". Had Uncle Kun's porridge for lunch today. Studied chemistry. Bleahh. Figured out ways to expand my wardobe (: 200m heats are tmr, shit. I would rather go for drama. My toe has a horrible blister/cut/whatever on it. Hope i won't run,fall and roll. Wish me luck. JJ is fixing his sofa now lol. I ate mentos till i felt like puking today. Mentos after pineapple is a bad combination.  ¶ 9:25 PM 0 Comments

  Home It's time for me to go home. For the past two years i've been saying that again and again to myself. But i've never truly reached home. I stayed near the cliff, where i could play to my heart's content. It was dangerous. But He saved me time and time again. I could have just toppled off that clifftop into the deep ravine below.It would have been impossible to climb out. The darkness would have swallowed me. This time, i didn't just trip over the stones and almost fall off the cliff. I flung myself out. I miraculously hung onto some branch. I didn't fall. He looked out for me again. Enough is enough. I'm coming back home.  ¶ 11:37 AM 0 Comments

  Nothing new SYF IS OVER! I have mixed feelings about this. Am sad about leaving drama but relieved at finally getting some long-awaited rest. Anyway, we have a facebook group now (:
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